These are some photos I’ve taken when I volunteered to sit at my daughter’s school during the absence of the main teacher on her leave.
From this week, my second daughter will switch from going to school part-time to full-time. First time in her life, she’s going to school (play school) everyday. By the time my first daughter was at the same age, she had already been in preschool full-time, so it shouldn’t be a big deal. For some reason, I’m feeling a bit hesitant this time.
I think, the hesitation comes from recognizing the fact that this is the beginning of the next chapter of parenting. From now on, both of my girls will only grow up to be more independent and my big role as a caregiver at home in the past 6 plus years will forever change. Now I have more of a supervisory role.
Part of me is also being self-conscious about staying home when my child is not home. I’m afraid that I can’t justify for being home and not working while my child will be at school everyday except that I am not allowed to work in my current host country. I am apprehensive about what people will think about me. In the Western societies, I feel that the job as a stay-at-home mom is not as valued as other paid jobs even though it is one of the most challenging jobs that exist.
For me to come to the point where both of my kids are in school (one is still a baby stage) everyday and I have free time in the morning is momentous. I should be celebrating. However, I am feeling sentimental instead.