In this picture, my daughter’s throwing a fit about not wanting to carry her back-pack. This is how I felt like yesterday.
Yesterday was one of those days I felt unmotivated to do anything. Wherever you are, you have ups and downs, but those downs seem to strike harder when you are in a foreign country where your life is not always in your control. Yesterday was like “when it rains, it pours”.
I have been sick during the past two weeks. I had parasites. It was the first time in my life I experienced a parasitic infection. Nice welcome from Indonesia. I’ve been on the antibiotics since last Friday and finally I feel normal. Then on top of that, last Saturday night I lost my voice and have coughs now. It’s draining and straining to talk and cough with my condition, but with two young kids, you can’t really ‘not talk’. I feel exhausted.
Besides myself being sick, I’m frustrated with my current car situation. I cannot get things done when I want because we still don’t own a car. My freedom is limited because of it. I’m 35, but I feel like 15 in the U.S. No, I’m not talking about mental level. You know, you have to depend on others to go somewhere.
We have wanted to buy a used one, but I spent three months looking for one and nothing good came available and if there was one, someone else snagged it even before it was advertised. Three months later, I am still without my own wheels. One errand a day or maybe two if I’m lucky is all I can handle using public transportation because it takes a long time to go anywhere in a parking-lot like traffic in Jakarta and it rains almost every afternoon which means I only have morning to take care of errands. Once it starts raining, your time is up and you are stuck inside. If you have your own car, it’s not an issue, but if you rely on taxis, it becomes extremely difficult to find a taxi on a street and often times taxis are not available for order by phone when it’s raining.
I am not the only one who feels stranded because we don’t have a car. My kids are affected by this, too. My older one comes home after school and tells me she wants to see her friends, but we can’t. I would love her friends to come over, but I noticed that people usually hesitate to go out after school because of the traffic.
I just have to accept that this is how life is in this city. I’m going to get my life more organized. I’m determined to buy a new car now. Before all that, I need to get healthy.